and speaking of being an easterner...i forget how sometimes my mouth runs away with me. apparently i called someone an asshole the other night but they didn't get that i was joking. yeah, ok...why on earth would i call anyone an asshole as a joke? regardless, i did...and they thought that i was serious. what's wrong with me? why do i put on this tough exterior? to avoid being seen as weak? to avoid letting anyone close? to avoid the inevitable pain? tell me what i have to end...