this life is not easy and that goes without saying and knowing that a friend of mine is now dealing with one of the worst possible losses brings me great pain...

yesterday at the carle ER when i came in with a migraine so severe that i had no idea if i was in real medical jeopardy or not, i couldn't help thinking of october...although my trip was only for 30 minutes, i wondered what else was going on during my stay.

sometimes you think how easy it would be to just disappear. but it's not. not to everyone left behind, left behind and wondering...