Tuesday, May 16, 2006

suicide. and when i saw the part about other schools trying to copy what we do at the university of illinois i couldn't help choke on my soda knowing how it *really* works around here. and then i opened my email to learn the unbelievable and i felt so selfish for thinking about my own situation and the confusion i sometimes feel when i don't really know what you are thinking and i feel unsettled and i try and i try and i hope.

but you are here. you are here. and that's the most important part. you are here.

2 comments:

Mo said...

and i WANTED to go to cornell?!?
i do know a girl who (at u of i) tooks some time off (from grad school) to get her self in order... she wasnt suicidal (as far as i know) but she was depressed. i wonder if i should have taken some time off... my grades definetly suffered and things in the dorm, well, feel apart pretty much...

VRGirl said...

yeah, it's really a hard call to figure out if time off is a better idea than sticking it out. some people just need the break while others need to stay connected. either way you end up explaining it -- time off versus time spent not at your best. and that's what i hate -- because depression isn't something you can just easily tell an employer about -- it'd be easier if you could say "oh i broke both my legs that semester" with regard to how people treat the pain of depression...so unfair...