Friday, June 30, 2006
i just want to go home...please help me go home...
my grandfather left this place for the next place, yesterday. it was a night train that carried him from the station in his sleep.
and now it's the middle of the night for me...2:24am...and every time i try to go to sleep, i start breaking into sobs...which makes me wonder how good of an idea is it to go to michigan with chris for another funeral this weekend? but i don't want him to go alone...but i also don't want to be a burden should i break down during the services.
so much anger swirls around me directed mainly at my grandmother...what's her body count up to now? too much to go into right now and i'm tired...yet scared to go to sleep.
my dad kept calling me "mother" on the phone.