it's 3:32am. what's going on? why can i not get on a normal sleep schedule? gee...i have an idea about how tonight *happened* but last night? just doesn't make sense.

so i am leaving on may 8th. for dc, that is. i leave for seattle from national on may 12th. that leaves me two full weeks after this. more to the point, that leaves me two more weekends after this. what do i do? what do i do about next year? do i apply for the job that i made fun of just the night before? do i stay and hope that the unknown gig, the one that pays me to finish my dissertation comes through? i just don't know.