ok...why i am sitting, typing this on my laptop on the friggin' floor while my cats are on the bed all stretched out? anyway, it's become very cold and windy here all of the sudden and most of the trees have already lost all their leaves. i wonder why i find this time of year to be the most beautiful...i guess that even though everything is dying all around, there's hope in knowing that at least some things will be back again when spring rolls around.

tomorrow marks the ten year anniversary of amy's death and i was just re-reading the diaries from that summer and finding it hard to believe that we were ever that young, that any of that actually happened, that she was still alive.