ny resolution is to find what it is that keeps me in this game...then go with that.

nye and i'm at my parent's house because i've been too sick to leave, had to rearrange my flight back for tomorrow from last wednesday...period pain gone but now the spirokeets have moved in and my sweet guy called earlier and i miss him so much...hny.

create your own visited country map.

cool. still. only 7% (17 countries) of the world i have seen. damn. yoda-style post.

i'm going to stab myself in the abdomen. repeatedly. until i can get to amsterdam. seriously...wtf, wtf, wtf is wrong with us?????????

oy...period, migraine...all early and all killing me and the phone keeps ringing and ringing here and the phones are all set to ring at "high" and now i remember why i turn the ringer off on my phone in c-u...waiting on my doctor at northwestern to call in a prescription, he's in surgery right now, i'm dying, i'm dying, i'm dying.

so this morning i ask my dad "so where's stevie" (the cat) and he's like oh, i thought she was in the basement in the workroom, mom hasn't even seen her yet. so we go looking around for her in the basement and my dad is panicking "oh great, i've lost her...this is not good." finally we find her in the spare bedroom in the basement and all is well. the psycho family twist on this is that it's her ashes that my dad had misplaced after bringing them home from the crematorium (sp?) and we were trying to find her before her birthday tomorrow. ah, sweet memories of xmas eve.

d.c.

alexandria, va, really. no luggage. home, yet not. did i really ever live here?

ok it's been over a month since my last post, which is the official version of "falling off the face of the earth" by many people's standards but i assure you that i can be handle much longer stints than that. leaving for dc wednesday afternoon and returning the following wednesday or thursday or something like that, i don't really care and i haven't really been paying any attention. the fall from my manic kingdom hit quickly this month, which i *medicate* with anti-psy's and either nyquil or tylenol pm...depends on my mood at the moment. i really shouldn't mess with the nyquil especially after last month when it put me into a coma fog and also downloaded a trojan horse onto my computer and i realize that, hey, uh the semester is over huh?