am watching the parade of nations for the olympics now. just woke up from a nap where i dreamed that they had to do surgery on me and then they found cancer everywhere and i had to tell everyone goodbye. god...that's pathetic sounding. but my dreams are running away from me right now. i guess most of you know that i'm in the waiting game now for the biopsy on march 11th. will someone tell me why doctors in three cities just blew off all the symptoms all summer and fall??? FUCK!