it's really the failure of our higher learning institutions...why can't they figure out some damn way to safeguard personal information WHILE getting people help? sure, we have the *famous* university of illinois system where they make you go to counseling 4 times and even if you say nothing, it doesn't matter as long as you are physically in the room...and that sure (did not) stop(ped) c's student from slashing himself open at a convenience store late one night and the middle of the night phone calls to see if we were still alive when c was the only one who gave a damn and helped even after seeing how *useless* our system was after my experiences as a counselor in the dorms and as a teacher in the classrooms...pleased to meet you...and the illinois system? that did a lot of good as one of our students took a trip to NIU...my general physician told me today that he met the guy in town that ran the gun shop (now closed) that sold that guy his gun...it never showed in the database that he *might* not have been eligible to buy the gun...hope you guess my namethe two doctors keep telling me that i could not have known things would take the course the way that they did at virginia tech...i know...i know that...miller might have been outta there long ago but that might not have prevented what happened 20 years later...because NO ONE listened to the english department there...no one listened to me in housing, at the dean of students at illinois time after time. at least mine ended in my breaking the rules, losing my job(s), but not the lives i protected...and the university could sweep it all under the rug every damn time because at that point because "we have to look after the well being of our students and you've crossed the line that we are comfortable with." but then...wasn't i a student? ah yes...i was just a grad student cursed with seeing the pain all around me...but whats puzzling yousome expressed surprise but most have said *typical* when i said that absolutely nothing has been heard back from any channel...the media...the university...the state...
is the nature of my game
it is the nature of your game, university, to go no further than your convenient 8-4 jobs because GOD KNOWS no one ever does anything in the middle of the night...that's what we grad students were there for, only to be fired if we didn't call through the 90 chains of command before you can call 911...interestingly? cho chose the morning hours that day at tech...perhaps not as interesting given that's when he'd have the command of the institution at work...and miller, who had left the university the year before for private practice after getting transferred from the head of the counseling center to human resources...led the raid on norris hall that morning...where i'd had french classes there nearly two decades ago...i know the place well...or i knew what it looked like before cho entered it that day...

miller led the raid? as the doc said today...two years is plenty of time to doctor up some records...we may never know the truth...it was probably burned long ago...

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