i haven't been to this place in so long... i'm sorry about that.

so much has happened and there are no explanations, no reasons... nothing.

off of the prozac and thinking about stopping the wellbutrin... strange that off the prozac i feel again. and it's strange and exciting and confusing...

i told my father that he and my brother are trying to sabotage my path... and ultimately their paths. what i mean by that is that i'm finally seeing what i never saw before... it's better to sit and do nothing than take a chance at trying to find the compass that is lost... if i ever had one...

if he believes that it's not going to work... than it won't. it's as simple as that.