the statement that ranks amongst the top most bothersome things someone could say to me is "you don't seem depressed." and why is that exactly? i mean one might think that's a good thing...that i don't seem depressed because i'm so much better now.

but that's not how it is, not really. instead it sounds like this "oh you think you're depressed? yeah right." then it's not like it all just goes away...it's not like these things i take every day make everything ok and rosy and take away all the pain and shit in this world...it's not thorazine, folks.

then there are some days...i feel like it's not anything. like they aren't even working any more...and it's been 3.5 years now...maybe they aren't working any more? how long can these things last?